It’s odd! I’m sane and solvent but in December 2016 something happened, I don’t know what it was or is but something broke inside me.
I spent days in a daze, unable to concentrate or focus. Work seemed to consume me and home became neglected.
Then the crying came! The absolute sobbing. There was no cause or reason just crying.
It came to a head when I suffered my first panic attack! In a Christmas market, surrounded by hundreds of people. I felt like I was drowning, unable to breath, my heart in my mouth. I ran away from the market, went home and slept!
I slept for hours, wrapped in my duvet, only rising to take the dog out or feed her and the cat.
This all ended as quickly as it began! No idea what or why it happened but I just now know I can break and I’ve got to take it steady!
I can’t tell you what happened, nor if it will happen again. But I’ve learnt from it. I’m not afraid to say no, I’m not afraid to be late and I’m not afraid to put me first.
Oh and tea & a cat that demands a lot of fuss helps (I promise you)
You know me, you follow me on Twitter so have heard me insane ramblings or maybe you’ve seen my photos on Instagram.
If you do follow me on either method of social media you’d know about the old ladies in my life.
Flo has been my partner in crime for years. She is an enigma of a cat with a few mental health issues.
She was discovered by a friend of mine in a field one October morning. He was out exercising his working spaniel when they came across a scrawny and small kitten! No mother cat around, the kitten was scooped up and taken back to the cottage where she spent her formative first few weeks with a litter of spaniel puppies.
She came to me not long after this and now insists on chasing balls, sitting on command and generally carrying out dog duties.
My other older lady is Quilla, a retired Guide Dog who as all Labrador owners will know is a walking vacuum.
She arrived last November as a temporary lodger at the house! It’s now late October and all the adoption papers are signed and the fees paid! She’s going nowhere.
She turned 10 in March and mainly spends her days eating, sleeping or avoiding the cat.
She howls in anticipation as we drive along the driveway to Attingham Park (her favourite walking and swimming spot) and has discovered the delights of our open fire or the warmth of an Aga when we visit friends.
All in all the older ladies in my life have a happy and contented home and fill my life with a lot of happiness
You know it and I know it! I love Autumn it’s just a wonderful season.
I’ve been raiding friends gardens, filling bags of Damsons, Plums and Apples plus rooting around in hedgerows for Sloes, Haws, Blackberries and Rosehips all of which have found themselves in jars filled with booze.
I cheat with the Sloes and pop them in the freezer over night and of course you have to be quick with the Blackberries as folklore has it that blackberries shouldn’t be picked after Old Michaelmas Day on 10th October because that’s the day that the Devil spits on the blackberries.
I’ve had to make extra Hedgrerow Gin this year as it didn’t last long at all last year 🙂
I might even make some secret extra batches to surprise everyone in January when we’re all a bit blue and all the Autumn goodies have gone!
We all love to be somewhere we shouldn’t! To peak through an door that’s rarely left open and today I managed yet again to have the chance to do just that!
All other appointments cancelled I nipped over to Birmingham to take part in another Hidden Brum project and this one offered the chance to take a look inside The Grand Hotel in Birmingham.
The hotel first appeared in around 1879 and had been an operating hotel up until 2002 and has managed to become bankrupt in 3 different centuries. It had its turbulent history passing from hotel chain to hotel chain and now it’s under going huge development and that’s what we got to take a look at.
An amazing tour, with an incredible leads from the owners and the renovators we saw what modernisation had done to the once grand building and what was being discovered following a modernisation plan in the 70’s (or 80’s)
As we walked around it felt to me what walking around a derelict ocean liner would be like or what it would be like being the last person to leave and lock up a palace.
But anyway here is a selection of my photos glimpsing behind the closed doors of The Grand Hotel, Birmingham
I’m not sure about you, but I feel that Autumn has arrived, at least here in Shrewbury it has.
I’ve had to dig out jumpers and make repairs where moths have ravaged through the knit, I’ve been cleaning out kilner jars ready for some harvested hedgerow delights and I have been chopping and stacking wood in the shed ready for the dark and chilly nights.
I love the Autumn, my diary fills up more then the lazy sun filled days of Summer or the hard work filled days of Spring.
My work days are started in the dark and ended in the dark.
Walks with the dog are an opportunity to see how many layers you can fit into
And most importantly pastry encrusted pies and gravy soaked casseroles become staple fodder for us.
Welcome to Autumn
So I’m celebrating my first Spring here in Cherry Orchard and the garden is constantly surprising me 🙂
Admittedly the Bluebells are Spanish and the Yew completely over grown BUT the buds appearing on the Lilac are a sign of wonderful scented evenings to come!
The garden is a hotch potch of plants, trees and shrubs but it’s a magical place.
I can’t wait to see what else it has to show me
It’s good enough for Cary Grant in North by Northwest so it’s good enough for me! Sadly a trawl of the cocktail bars of Shrewsbury left me Gibson less!
In the 4 places I attempted to order one, 2 knew exactly what I. wanted but there were no Silverskin Onions available, 1 x barman had to ‘Google’ the drink to Fi d out what went in it & 1 x barman sadly didn’t know what I was talking about!
The search for the perfect